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I just want someone to be cute with.
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i fell for him time a time again… his love for me is overwhelming, but the thought of being with one person forever since the age of 19 is ten times more overwhelming then any undying love. he lives for me, i live for myself…. i struggle between thoughts of being with him forever and being alone forever… i kill myself everytime i disapoint him. i just want to be free to be friends with anyone i want, i wanna learn more, i wanna grow more, i wanna fuck up time and time again, i wanna find passion in life, i wanna follow my dreams, i dont wanna wake up 40 years old with a child who doesnt know what real love and real life is and who struggles the way i have to set herself free. i want to be the example. i dont want to end up like my mother, settling and depressed, i wanna grow old with someone i cant live without. but i feel like i cant live without anyone at this point. i dont wanna end up like my father, in a loveless marriage with a daughter who left him because of his anger at the world including me… i want happiness, of the rarest kind… i want love of the most passionate kind. but i am not ready for it all right now… i must work for it. i dont even know what im doing anymore. no highschool deploma, no license, no job, nothing. i have nothing, who the fuck am i to give someone my all when i give myself nothing but a hard time for not loving someone the right way…. who the fuck am i.
i do believe ive dug myself into a deep slimy hole.
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Everyone interprets everything in terms of his own experience. If you say anything which does not touch a precisely similar spot in another man’s brain, he either misunderstands you, or doesn’t understand you at all.
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